Hidden mysteries in between

2010-05-18T03:30:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to be god damn tired,
but I can't sleep . And it's already 3.30.
And I gotta admit, I'm actually tired.
But there is somethings that kept bothering me.
Mistakes are made, I won't regret.
But I will choose to move on.
I will not stay there to explain,
Because all I know it's my wrong.
All I can give in , is an apology.
I won't demand an explaination.
Because I can never win.
I gave everything , it seems like life have to restart again.
Back to the starting point,
I've gotta to move from there again.
This sucks, seriously suckzxc.

2010-05-14T23:14:00.002+08:00

You may know who you're right now ,
But I shall not put your name here,
I don't wish to feel that bad.
But to tell you frankly, we don't "hate" you.
Lets just use this term, its "dislike" the things you did.
As i know, I fight alot with Billie, so we're not very close last time.
After I joined back to the group, I can feel you change alot too.
To me, you're so much of a different character right now.
A true friend accpects who you are, but.. we'd accpected who you're.
But its just that, we told you your mistakes too, to let you change.
Do you really wish the world people "dislike" you?
Thats the reason why we will confront it out.
To you, it may seemed that we're evil.
Especially for me, because i wasn't really involved.
But to me, I feel more like a judge.
I don't side you, I don't side them. To speak frankly.
I am alright with you, and them.
But, to reasons they still won, but you gotta think.
You "dislike" Joline. Okay, I understand, you can dislike anybody you want.
But had you thought of her feelings?
Lets not put feelings into such a conversation alright.
From an outsider, I can feel that Joline give in to you alot.
She thought of your feelings alot, like not confronting..
Not telling anything bad about yours,
Care for you as a stranger, while you treated her as enemy.
Hey, please know that good friends don't come easily?
Why you don't know how to treasure?
You still tell so many people you hate her or something.
Seriously, hating is so fun eh? Whats so fun?
OMG, SHE'S A BITCH, WALAO EH, SHE HOR... *backstabs*
Everyday, complaining, you not bored of it?
The more you're scolding, the more you're getting back.
This is life, how realistic.
Everybody isn't perfect, I agree with sabrina.
But, even though the most imperfect person,
needs a chance to change. So, why can't you offer it to Joline?
you just kept continue saying you hate her.
Had you actually told her what you hate about her?
If I were Joline, Omgosh. I'll be god damn maddddd.
But Joline, took it. and still try to understand you.
Hey girl, whats wrong in your head? She's such a goodfriend !
I'm actually always jealous of you,
having such great friends around you.
but when i looked at it closely,
I realised, you're not even true towards them.
How did you managed to laugh and smile, infront of them?
A matter of time of friendship, can't count how much care they're giving in.
Even if its just 1s, 1min, 1hr, 1 day, its still friendship.
It doesn't matter how long, It matters how much you put in.
Don't really have to worry so much.

2010-05-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

Hide And Seek

Today went to play hide and seek with
Billie, Munirah , Felicia , Axton , Domonic, Kenneth, Keith, Xavier, Fariz z. Saiful, Louis,
Hurray, me and billie was the last to be found.
It was so fun, extremely fun !!
Thanks to you guys, I'm having great fun today.
And nowadays, Its nothing but distance between eachother.
I'm not going to try to cover this distance.
Because you're the one that is making those distance.
Sorry, but its over.
Sorry, because I'm not the kind that hesistate.
As I think that, you're not even worth for my time.

I

2010-05-05T17:58:00.006+08:00

Went out around with Billie, Munirah at Tampines1.
It been so long since i last hang out with Billie !
I wonder how long later will we do this ?
I'm having fun today !
I went back to primary school, I missed it so much.
And me and munirah kena chase by the cleaners.
So we played hide and seek, as the sch is dam big.
I miss it so much, I wonder where are my teachers?
Somehow, I feel that I don't really exist .
Maybe, you're perfect.
But to that senses bah, I miss you, Do you?
Oops, I don't think so . (:

2010-05-03T23:13:00.005+08:00

What do you see ?

Tadah !

Wingchun LOL!

Birthday cake , & A heartshape ! Weet!

Lighting the damn candles ): !

26.03.2010. :D

Titanic ! LOL !!

Happy birthday to my dearest,
On the 30th of April.
Okay, I'm dragged to do this job ):
I don't understand why on earth will
my boyfriend birthday , become he buy me things?
Is he something wrong in the brain?
Okay, he kept asking me to post all the photos.
And okay , I surrender. ):
I seriously, hate blogger for the long post
I cannot understand what a person is thinking.
How exactly can you force a smile to your enemy?
How fake can you make it to be?
I really wonder, how exactly did you do it.
; I can't believe it.

2010-04-28T23:13:00.002+08:00

i'm not that weak ,
Don't look down on me,
I'm stronger from what i look,
I don't tear for pain,
I don't tear for sorrow,
They're just boring waste of time!
Especially for someone like you?
You can't even bless me, forget it!
And you're giving attitude?
When i teaching you?
Please go and reflect what you did!
Throw of my face!
Worthless. Zzz.

2010-04-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

Okays , Exams started.
& my mind is bursting already.
I'm gonna lazy post for these whiles.
Until exams are over. So
Goodluck to all people taking exams :D

2010-04-18T01:24:00.000+08:00

I've already knew the answer,
so why do I still bother to wait?
Am I trusting you too much?
I should had been more selfish.
I should had requested you to stay.
But, whats happiness is giving you what you want.
So lets just say, I still don't regret my answer?
I just wanna give you to them.
Its my fault for not being able to accpect.
And all I wish is you to be happy.
I dislike the way you speak about
how you can do it for me.
It was just an simple lie.
You said you don't like to make lies.
Aren't you kept doing it?
I wished you would have never said so.
What I wanted you to do,
was just to promise me.
Since you can't make the effort,
It hurts me in the beginning.
When you promised and break,
It hurts at the ending.
You can't afford to share an effort,
to let me at least feel the "love",
in the beginning, and hurt me at the ending.
You choose to hurt me in the beginning,
Before It reaches the ending.
I don't understand why,
You can make me happy, for awhile.
And just blow my happiness with a sentence.
I don't really think I fit for you.
Can I just give up already?
Its tiring, I'm tired.
I hate to wait, wait for something.
Which actually don't worth my time.
& I hate the way, you're enjoying.
& I'm actually waiting, for you.
I don't give a fuck anymore,
So stop disturbing me _I_.

2010-04-15T19:50:00.010+08:00

Pictures for the sakura buffet thingy.
Yea, That was quite overdued.
Happy birthday Axton Lastly.
& I'm currently engrossed w/ 07-ghost.
Damn you sandra once again. All your fault ):
Kept stop my tears flowing down, and tissues all around.
T_T ! Sandra soooooo !!!!!!!!!!!
& I learned a new value today.

When you realised that I'm gone,
Don't Hesistate, everything is already gone.
The feelings are not there anymore.

2010-04-12T00:47:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to mummy&belle baby, <3 !
Went to eat sakura today,
Was god dam full alrights!
Took neoprints, went back home!
I'm craving for frolicks :( !
Frolicks please, :(
Didn't understand why&why.
So why am i feeling so deep?
Desperate, or what?!
I hate this feeling.
Hiding under the pillow,
Pretending hearing nothing.
I hate this man. :(
I hate to be over honest !
Especially on what i'm feeling.
But, its okay , i don't mind,
Losing or having. Its the same,
Its still a stupid life. So be it?
Goodnights !

2010-04-08T17:34:00.002+08:00

Everything seems to vanish very quickly.
I think is because I do not know how to treasure.
I'm the one to blame afterall. (:
Its not I wanted to do it. Its I can't stand it.
Sigh, I'm really very sorry, Sandra.
But, Its okay, I will leave you to decide.
Whether you wished to continue or give up.
But, I really enjoyed those times,
But those times is filled with something now.
His name, Your complains.
I'll wait, Wait for the day to overcome.
Until that day, I'll just secretly hear your news.
Listen to your voice recalling from far.
Copy your works for you when you're not here. (:

& Life seems overall perfect,
But it isn't perfect as I just lost something.
Currently, I'm in a daze. ):
Sigh sigh sigh ! :x
Today, went to school.
Was god damn hyper I don't know why.
Didn't sleep in any lessons, Good Girl Okay !
Studied for Geography, Kept panicking.
And Indeed, I flunk my paper ):
I forgotten alot of things. Sob.
Boyfriend is sick , Got fever. 38+ !
So, I asked him to go and rest. mwhaha.
&&&&
I thinking to change blog link for the meantime.
Should I? ):

2010-04-07T00:43:00.003+08:00

Lets just treat it as i'm thinking too much
I don't understand why either,
Maybe you're too busy?
Maybe you're too tired?
Every single time we're apart.
It don't seemed to be right?
It seems like its telling me
Lots of different stories about you?
And all i can seriously think is,
Are you true or not?
Is it very hard to reply a message?
Than picking up a call?
Maybe maybe?
Don't wish to elaborate further,
Just wanna say i'll try to stop all my feelings.
And allow it to fade before i suddenly got to fade from all?
I'll start from a little to more than.
Its better than more to little.
Because more to little is more painful.
Hey. It suck, you suck :(

2010-04-06T23:38:00.002+08:00

Mood kept running in rollercoasters.
Suddenly I feel happy, Suddenly I'm not.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much already.
Seriously, one thing I hate so much,
Is falling in love.
Because, you'll be very afraid to lose everything.
Its just like after you build a tower for a long time,
You'll eventually afraid of it falling down.
& this kind of feelings, is so unbearbearable. ):
& I noticed somebody kept looking @ me from far.
Came close to me @ Geography.
I don't understand what you want?
I tried to talk to you, asked you go toilet.
You just walked past me without knowing.
And you're trying come closer to me?
Are you coming closer to me, or really,
Talking to munirah and interested in Axton's Rings?
Hmm, Idiotic man.
I starting to go crazy for something again.
Stop researching about it already lah. ROAR.
I want an Iphone Damn you _I_
Idiotic Iphone, you're trying make me addicted to you.
Damn you damn you damn you !
I'll stop addicted to you !! Or I'm gonna get my ways
to force my mother buy you ! _I_ !
Stop glue-ing to me T_T !
Your idiotic shape kept making me do research abt you T_T!

& Boyfriend came over,
And requested my mother write letter for him,
Idiot siah ! Pon school use my mother !
Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
But its okay lah, I also always use MWHAHAHA.
but now mood is low back.
And I hate you Iphone T_T

♥ I'm fucking happy today.

2010-04-05T00:01:00.007+08:00

Cinnamoroll, mwark. (:
Boyfriend, mwark mwark . (:

HOHOHOHO,
Boyfriend wanted hide face away
But too bad !
I gotten your picture NOOB.

CINNAMOROLL I LOVE YOU
But I love my boyfriend more more.

4 little soft toy, are kawaii (:

Boyfriend greedy hold two soft toy,

Never share one gimme LOL

candle's mushroom :D
I know don't look like ):
Don't kp ! ):

hoi, I superman hor, Want fight ah ? :D

This photo is so overdued.
It is so past, & the present isn't this smile anymore.
But just let me recap the good memorises bah. (:

Muahahahha, The first time I see my bf de looks.
Unglam you mei you !
I bet he sees this he will request me to remove it HAHAHA.
But, the memorises areee so sweeeet . (:
Baby. I love you ! :D

Can you see this picture of soft toys?
DAMN IT MAN , IT MAKE ME FUCKING HIGH TODAY.
Firstly,
I would like to thank my boyfriend !
Boyfriend is a person, that hates to go dhoby,
& Dhoby Ghaut filled with lots of bad memorises for him.
& with those memorises inside, he didn't went for 2 year already.
But, because of my Cinnamoroll,
He did it, and he went there,
I am DAMN fucking touched man !
Thankyou baby, sacrificed your memorises for me.
I love you ttm , ttm you know ! To the max !
Went to prizestage, Okay :x
Bubbletea fall down from the thing.
And the person keep scolding us
But I pretended hearing nothing, &
I see boyfriend kept chionging the machines.
But, with boyfriend noob skills,
He failed to catch it OF CAUSE !
Then, he did not give up !@
He asked the person, Can buy anot? LOL

Then the person say can ~ OMG.
He bought the Cinnamoroll one !

It costs like 50 bucks ):

Then we chionged about 30 plus bucks ):

Quite wasted, then afterthat
play jackpot then get the rilukuma

omg happy dai. DAMN HAPPY LA !

Then get the 4 little small small one.

so cute can ! shy lah. :D

Then, my boyfriend and I cabbed home

Chiong home eat all the mushrooms away !
then fight abalone fight.

pass abalone , and he pass back.
Thats how it started ! Shy.

Then after finishing dinner,

he went back home ):

But its supper already la ! 11 plus then eat.

Hehehehe. Currently on the phone w/ boyfriend.

but he keep haiiiiyaaa, nothing to say de lei ):

Sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry baby.
&&&&&&&& I fucking love you , omg. :x

I wannna bring to school the minnie mouse !! :D

& idiot siah, boyfriend start saying he is shuai again. BOO!
& 你不是世界上最帅的，如果你是的话，

我就糟糕了，应为到那个时候你就不是我的了，

所以不可以做最帅的！

2010-04-03T23:24:00.000+08:00

Mother fucking dulan right now,
When you did a crime,
Does it means forever you live inside the crime?
And everybody shall kept saying it?
ccb, I fking buay song now already.
I wanna bth already, Can I release it out now?
Knn, I don't think I need you?
Maybe what she said was true,
Cheebye , Do I fucking need you?
Knn. Dog siah you.
Knn, What the motherfking problem with you?
People leave you, ccb my fault?
Knn, think again man ccb.
Dulan ttm.
Your motherfking confidence is so high.
When your motherfking confidence is low.
You blame the people all around you.
knn, cheebye, dog.

2010-04-02T21:47:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry baby,
I'm sorry that I still message other guys,
Even though you're already mine.
I know it quite hurts to see it,
& I know you're actually angry,
but you refuses to show it to me.
Im so so so sorry to make you feel this.
But baby, ever since 30th.
You made me fully your girl,
I don't know how, but I just feels so.
Sorry that I got low confidence,
Sorry I got bad looks.
But no matter what happens,
Even till the day you left,
I'll remember everything,
And I will never break with you :D
Till the day you break with me.
Because, God gave me you.
But you can choose to go,
But I will try my best to keep you with me.
Baby, I love you. (:

2010-04-02T21:31:00.004+08:00

Firsly,
went to bugis to take charger, take neoprint.
Alright ! Had fun, bought a female hamster to pei AHDAI.
But i'm gonna rename him as RAPIST >:l
Any ideas what a girl shld know if the bf is rapist?
Sex partner? Sexist? ):

2010-04-02T01:44:00.002+08:00

I had a huge wrestling war fight !
& I miracly won the opponent, (:
& My freaking hamster is sooo cuteeeeeeeeeee.
Damn lah, My boyfriend&hamster is so cute :D
He told me, Walao, you can write for sandra so much,
Tmd You write for me 2 lines ! ):
So I argued say because you're here
I can't think of anything to write,
Then he requested for me to tickle him to have the feel !
SOOOOO, I tickled him mwhahahaha ! (:
Then he ran far far far far far away . hehehe.
Life is not very perfect nowadays,
Although I gotten her agreement,
Because I really love you like how I first went crazy for a guy.
But, It seems like she is still not satisfied with it.
Maybe, I did not prove it too well out.
But, Let me just gotta say it to you..
You're the best ever thing that God given,
I'll always remember ever single moment we're together,
From the day we started, Till the day we ended,
Every single things we did together,
ESPECIALLY THE TIMES WHEN YOU RAN AWAY !
& I can always remember,
When you first asked me on the phone,
Whether my favourite pet was hamster.
& Bought me a hamster within 3 hours later,
& made me fcking happy the wholeday.
When you first asked me,
What do I like, & I said Cinnamoroll,
You said where got sell,
When I said I want it catched by the machine,
You immediately asked me where has it.
I love all your efforts for me,
& I'll never forget about it. (:
Hoi ! Why you come back into the room !
Taoyan larh, I haven't type finish ! ):
IDIOT ! :D
I still remember today IDIOT !
Happy april fools day. (:
I fooled you to say I wanna break,
& you freaking lied to me youre reacton?!?!?!
Damn it, I thought I fooled you ):
& OI!
When Can I have enough photos ?
ROAR, I don't want neoprint,
I want PHOTOS ROAR.
Nothing to post one lei, IDIOT SIAH ):
Stop blowing at my kelian de hamster,
Although he's your son too,
But he is very kelian de ogey !
& stop saying you're the most handsome in cube !
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
I am more handsome than you !
& LETS ALL SALUTE THIS GUY,
HE'S THE MOST HAOLIAN PERSON in SINGAPORE ^^!

2010-04-02T01:32:00.003+08:00

Hearing what you said to me today,
I was quite amazed with what you're saying,
But I wasn't amazed at all at centurysquare,
You.... made me fking speecless,
I got nothing more to say,
I don't understand myself why do I have such a weird person like you,
I don't understand why am I even respecting you.
I don't fucking understand why you're feeling like this.
you know what i am feeling right now?
I feel like hoping that you fall for any of my ex boyfriend,
Like how you fall for yoshi..
& I hope that you will fking understand what am I feeling right now.
What the fuck.
I can undestand your feeling,
but I don't understand why you're saying this to me..
Fucking don't understand why..
I don't know what the fuck you want lah,
fucking stress.
Don't really wish to think about what you said @ century square.
I got nothing more to say le larh,
say seriously lorh, Today @ school.
You told me that you don't want me to talk about him anymore,
but then you started it..
Then I got scolded.....
Then, you expect me to keep quiet all the way,
Until before you cool down.
Yesh, I did pangseh you in school that day,
But how many times you pangsehed me before.
It is okay bah, I'm sorry bah.
Maybe I'm not good enough to be your friend?

2010-03-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Let someone to treasure you,
Not you to make them treasure you by skills.
But let them feel that you're needed,
So they will cherish you more well.
This is my style, but is that your style?
I don't know, whether is it good or not,
But to me, Thats my way of life.
I really hate it, when I see you shag.
I don't understand, Especially for GUYS.
Hey, WHY DOES GIRLS NEED TO BE SAD FOR GUYS?
SMILE MAN, WHY SAD?
The more you're sad, The more he's happier.
Because he made you SAD SAD SAD SAD !
Disgusting manzxc. Its so not worth it.
Alright, I admit, I still do so,
Even though I say it until so pro.
But, Comeon man, Cheerup,
Life goes on, It don't wait for you to be there.
It just moves and moves, Like how River never stop moving.
& Idiotic, I found out that I can't sleep.
Somethings kept running into my mind,
your name kept resounding back.
& it is like a never ending,
& my fking heartbeat is fast.
Then when I woke up, I realised,
You're not there for me, so why am I thinking?
Songs are so sweet, The melody is sweetandsour.
Its just like how a rollercoaster kept turning in circles,
And how SandCastles are destroyed by the water.
& how my heart is destroyed by you.
& you kept resounding back and back,
I can't stop missing you, Idiot. ):

2010-03-28T04:44:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I'm fked up stress.
My life filled with alot of why this why that right now.
Firstly, It is your why.
Secondly,It is also yours.
Fking dont understand anything at akk,
I shall try my best. I dont dare ask.
So I shall try to think and think ba.
Confused, & questionable,
Trustworthy, or not?
Haiyo~

friends or relationship?

2010-03-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

i don't wanna lose my friendship.
Neither do i wanna lose him,
But i'm fine with it,
I know i going overboard.
I just want 2days. 2days of your blessings.
Just 2, is it very selfish?
I don't understand. Is it selfish?
I..... Can't stop thinking.
Thinking if 2days can let me have the feeling of nightkids again,
I just wanna get back that feeling.
Thats all i want in life.
You may be angry for this,
But this is all i ask from you,
I'm really very sorry.
I really know i failed as a friend,
And i don't blame you,
I blame myself for falling to him
Too deeply.
Till i need someone which is already your ex,
To replace that feeling for me,
I'm sorry. Really believe me,
I'll do what i promised,
I won't go with him,
But all i ask is blessings for 2days,
Am i really too selfish?
Yes i know the feeling you getting.
But do you know mine?
How long i stared my phone for your blessings?
It isn't about time ba?
Its about my heart ba,
He..... Gaveme nightkids feeling.
Thats the reason why i go crazy ba,
At first i dam happy, to see him know everything of nightkids.
And i suddenly remember he's yours,
That was not the sad part,
The sad part was that......
You hung my call without letting me going save you sigh.
If i did went down. Will it be like this ?
I don't think so ba?
I'm sorry for what happened to you,
I'm really really dam sorry.
I'm not a goodfriend, yes i know.
If you left me alone,
I'll understand every reason why!
But i'm sorry to say,
You're the first friend.....
I did something so bad to,
But you're also the first,
That i threw relationship for you,
First friend i ever sacrificed my love,
First friend i called myself to dog to,
First friend i kept waiting for you,
First friend i never got angry when you're late,
First friend i kept thinking about,
First friend i worry so much for.
First friend i thought of catching butterfly for you to forgive me.
First friend i don't mind spending my every single cent for.
First friend i didn't cared for your looks and popularity low or high.
First friend i try doing so much for. Hey girl,
I really love you as my best friend,
What hurts the most was you said,
Maybe i didn't treat you as my friend.
Its like a huge stone suddenly drop to my heart,
It is painful, &i'm not lying,&i know.
You're feeling worst than me.
But can i have 2days of blessings? Sighs. :(
&lastly, i'm sorry 18th's :(

2010-03-24T19:37:00.002+08:00

Hey boy, This post is for you, Idiot.
Why are you so dumb?
To see your life meaningless.
Hey, you know you're not that meaningless.
You meant something in me,
thats why I think you're idiot now.
What are you going to do now?
Leave me & go inside? What about me?
Hey, Why are you so idiotic.
So how now? ):
Locked up, Is it fun?
Do you still want another time, A worst experience?
YOU KNOW THAT THING YOU'RE DOING NOW.
CAN LEAD YOU TO DEATH . ):
Do you really wanna die for such a idiot thing?
Hey, you know even though we're over..
I still will miss the way you kept talking non-stop.
About how "handsome" you're, and "perfect" and "sweet" you're.
Hey, What about now? Are you going inside soon?
Is pk-ing fun for you now?
Toh already, Toh de shuang mah?
wo yi dian dou bu shuang, ni zhi dao ma?
But this is a path you walked,
So if you're gonna continue it,
Hey boy, Takecare man.
I'm not gonna mix around w/ you anymore.
But, Please choose your choice wisely.
I don't know how the fk you ppl think now.
And I dont understand why,
Almost all the people I care alot,
Kept making me worry for you guys,
But please, stop it ?
Choose it wisely can? _I_ this man.
I'm damn angry with your parents now,
But it is your fault too. I'm sorry, I can't help.
_I_ Damn it; Stress.

2010-03-24T16:42:00.002+08:00

I don't understand what I did wrong to you,
I know I abit because of that guy betrayed you.
But may I know is it my fault that he likes me?
There is only a chance of 10% you'll read this,
But If you read this. Please , Can you please ,
Cherish yourself more next time?
I hate it when I see you like this,
& I freaking keep can't give you alcohol to cool down.
Can you please don't show your weakness to guys?
I hate it when you kept saying your weakness,
Because all I want from you is not your weakness.
It is you to realised how much you're capable of.
Hey girl, I wanna let you know.
I didn't compared you to myself, & I'm not trying to say,
That I'm better than you,
I'm just trying to tell you, Even if there is a just a little hope.
Don't always give up, Why did you scolded me?
Did I do something very very very wrong?
Like when I'm trying help you take ur cigg ?
I also kena scolding? You kept following TingHui for a stupid cig,
I'm just helping you get it back now.
Why am I scolded again? ):
Maybe I'm being too sensitive,
But I think that it is better to stop thinking about "weakness".
I really don't like the way you're now.
Hey girl, Can you stop neglecting me?
Forever and ever, I won't meet your GUY friends along with you.
SO can you stop being so attitude already?
It isn't what I wanted,
I go closer and closer,
Its because of ,
He resemble me of,
the someone very impt to me.
So can you stop thinking wrongly?
Sighs, I don't know what you want bah.

2010-03-22T20:31:00.001+08:00

Hey boy, I got a little secret for you,
So better read it carefully.
You got me tossing and turning in the night,
For you love and I can't sleep without you.
You hit me everytime, when I am trying close my eyes,
And I can't live without you,
Do you know you kept reminding of the past?
I dreamed of you alot of nights?
I kept waiting for your messages.
You're the one I loved ,
You're the reason to my everything.
We're just like a train,
It go past eachother,
But it never stop to wait for eachother.
&we kept being blown away,
by the fate and by the chances.
Hey boy, I miss you. Do you?

2010-03-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

Humans are fking typical.
I hate humans,
What the fk they want from me?
Especially you, Idiot.
Fk siah, Damn angry with this world.
I get enough le la. -.-
Idiotic, I dont feel like going to school.
I don't feel like facing those people.
Especially the one beside me.
Fk this kind of people man,
This kind of people deserves to die.
Especially you, dog.
I not gonna say who it is.
& I not going to say clues further who it is.
I hate you, Removing your name from my mind.
Fck off, dog dog dog.

2010-03-18T01:14:00.001+08:00

Spammed too much , stupid Carlsberg,
>.< " Feel like vomitting out that idiot beer taste.
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
It sucks >:

2010-03-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

Isn't happiness,
Seeing the person happy?
Why am i seeing it,
but i'm not at all happy.
Why am I torturing myself to drink and drink,
for such a guy, which is just the past?
Why am I crying?
Why?
May i know why?
Should be happy !
Happy girl, thats why you should be feeling...
Happy...
):

2010-03-17T15:05:00.001+08:00

I do not understand myself further,
I kept going to your stupid blog, For what fk?
Is it because I still miss you ? ):
Maybe it is, But its okay. :D
Since you decided to change, Then I shall give you the chance,
Give you the chance to stop it.
I give myself a chance too,
To forget and forget.
(:

2010-03-16T21:13:00.003+08:00

I wanna be the reason why he cancels a night out with his friends,
Because i'm sick,
why he stayed up late,
because i can't sleep.
why he slept with his phone on his hand,
because he was waiting for my reply,
why he searched a whole city for a book,
because he know its my favourite book.
why he doesn't drink too much,
because he knows i'll be angry.
why he's learning how to cook pasta,
because I'm craving for it.
why he's in love,
I wanna be his reason to every whys'.

2010-03-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

Life is a pain,
You're just the morning sweetness, night's madness.
I think I fallen deep in love with you, So how?
I don't think I wish to see you get what that he said.
I guess I'm just a fool to go over,
Just to see your face, & get myself a low mood.
I wish so much, you'll be back.
But how can you be back?
Tell me the motive of life,
Tell me the reason of being,
Tell me why am I always here?
To see you in depth.
I miss you, Do you? (flow)
Just so you know, I miss you so.

2010-03-14T15:11:00.011+08:00

BABY IS SCARY ,
But I still love my baby,
Boohoo, Today is still 14th, so it is still first month.
Baby Baby Baby.
------Love is---------- patient---------
----Love only comes---when you're here.---
--You gave me the love like nobody else.----
---Thats why i fallen in love with you.-----
-----Baby, you're my sweetest drug.------
--------No matter what happens,
----------Just always will be,
------------Here for you, njh..
--------------NgJunHao,boy.
------------------Iloveu.
-------------------♠Of♥
eh, I love you my dearest.
Baby boy, No matter who might hate you,
Please always remember, I will never do so.

Monkeys Are so adorable,
This post is specially for you, Boyfriend.
I love you most alright,
I made my special post,
You made me sorry in LOVE,
I made you a heartshape with my words.
Baby boy, stomach pain,
made me sacrisfised my Macfurrry

2010-03-14T03:45:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend, I love you.
I don't care , I just love you ):
You're mine, No more excuses.
Go and die,
So many girl hong you when I not with you?!
Grrrrrrrrrrr, All the girls,
Read this man,
He is mine again, Fck off.
Or i kick you go malaysia ! ROAR.
I love you , more than anything in this world.
If the world runs out of oxygen,
I'll be the one passed you the last mouth of oxygen.
You're my boy. (:

2010-03-14T01:37:00.002+08:00

Hot and Cold,
Yes and No,
Up and down,
True or False,
Love or Like,
Mine or None,
SpadeOfHeart,
You're mine,
Married to me, Roar.
Today is 14th yay.
I love love love love you.
Friends or Me?
It is up to you,
I respect your decision,
Because I once left you,
Dumbdumb, I love you.
But don't regret your decision.
Choose friends is better !
Because they last longer.
Especially for Guy friends . (:
For girl de friends,
They forever won't last de la ! :x

2010-03-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

2010-03-14T01:08:00.002+08:00

Scenary of Vivo.

sandra

sandra!

zilian ah zilian

zilian

Taken by : Sandra

Sandra

sandra

2010-03-14T00:55:00.002+08:00

Life is such a stress thing,
You only get to choose ONE.
BEST FRIEND or BOYFRIEND.
Damn it man,
I chose my best friend already,
alright?
So stop bothering me,
I give up give up give up.
Stress die me.
I keep thinking so much things,
What if, What if What ifs'.
Can't Life be abit better like,
Forever and Eternity exist?
Why does it don't exist?
You suck man, You suck!
So stresssssssssss.
& Happy day today,
Somehow, I went inside msn,
it totally brighten up my day.
Today is 1st month couple with NGJUNHAO.
But although i left him for 6 days,
and went to stead with zhong.
Hey yo, I'm back to you boy.
Thanks to Iva for making me realised
how much i loved you from the start.
我一直以来，都守候在你身边
不知你如何看得见，也只好静静靠在一边
你的笑容，能让我开心一整夜
好想拥有你在我身边，让黑暗时间变成晴天....
不能在一起，也没关系，至少你懂我的心会在想你
那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜，不管未来，你会在那里
我都不会忘记，我爱你，你是我微笑的原因,
Editted and perfect one.
I shall show you his error ones,
Hohohoho, I'm going to bully you now.
我一直以来都守候在你身边，不知你如何看得见
也只好静静靠在一边，你的笑容能让我开心一整夜
好想拥有你在我身边，让黑暗时间变成晴天，不能在一起，也没关系，至少你动我心会在想你
那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜，不管未来你会在那里
我都不会忘记，我爱你，你是我微笑的原因有你在我身边，让会按时间变成晴天

2010-03-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

KIRARA! :3

Zhong, :O

Sandra!

This stupid Reserved is drawn by my eyeliner.
LOL, because me and sandra wanted buy food.
So nobody take care of the table,
so i took the mr.bean's paper,
and draw RESERVED!

Sandra and me

All these are just overdue pictures,
Just wanna post it here,

To let me stop putting them @ my computer. (:

& lastly, me and zhong break already.

2010-03-09T22:01:00.002+08:00

Feel stupid,
Dear stranger:
If ever one day,
the whole world crashed on you,
& you're living in this crashed world.
Currently, you're trapped.
Ever single movement you move,
you might drop into a deep hole.
That you can never crawl out.
Will you dare or try to move?
If you do not move,
There might be hope you'll be rescued.
Its just a 10% hope.
But if you move, the hope you coming out,
is only 5%,
Which will you choose stranger?
Dear Betrayer:
If One day,
I betray you, for a guy.
Whats that motherfcking feeling?
You suck bitch,
Fuck off and die,
Look urself into the mirror,
You si buangster,
Fat, Ugly Bitch.

2010-03-04T07:01:00.001+08:00

Thankyou, PromiseLIES, aka as Gavin.
For being there for me.
When I thought nobody will,
Thankyou,
For making up my day, with your smile.
Thankyou,
For trying your best to tell me advise.
Sorry, for making you not to call me _ _ _ _ _ .
Thankyou,
You're sooo kindd ;luv!
& you're beautiful too alrights,
I don't know should I use this word,
You're handsome too. :x
It kinda sound weird,
But you're reallly so kind.
So wish the whole world filled with your soul. >.>
So everybody is so kind ! :3
Thankyou very very very much,
I won't forget you ! :3

2010-03-04T06:22:00.002+08:00

Giving up is the worst,
But seeing the person happy,
Is the best thing ever.
I'm sorry, But I know you're leaving soon,
Maybe its my fault, Maybe it isn't.
I blame myself for somethings that i've done.
I'm still sorry for everything,
Although I already know you're leaving tonight,
I still, gotta thankyou.
Because you had always tried to be beside me,
Always tried to give me your very best,
Always not leaving me alone behind.
Thankyou, lots and lots.
Sorry,
Because I used you,
I used you to forget my ex.
But thankyou,
you made me so happy,
till there was this day,
i forgotten him.
But it was just a day.
But, Still thankyou.
Because I think you made me like you,
But its not strong as love.
So, Sorry either.

2010-03-02T16:22:00.003+08:00

Hopes that you'll never leave me.
Friendships comes and go,
So can you don't leave me?
Went out with Sandra & Axton,
went to study at Carls' Junior.
I WILL STUDY DE. DON'T SO SHOCKED.
But okay la, say honestly, I didn't really get anything in ):
Photos i'll upload abit later.
I shall let him sleepsleep,
byeeeeeeeeezxc.

2010-02-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

Sorry for sucking this day up,
At first everything was perfect.
I gotten what I wanted,
Everything should had been perfect.
I wanted to say, My life rocks .
But somehow it crashed,
Maybe I don't suit you?
I'm not those kind like to sms,
is it my fault? x.x?
But, aiya. I don't know ba.
Moodless, :3
And maybe I'm just sensitive.
But, I think, without me in your life,
Everything will be more perfect?
Arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
MOOOOOOOOODLESSSSSSSSS.
Hope it ends soon ._.

2010-02-28T02:02:00.000+08:00

Today kept sleeping,
till 8 plus @ night.
Hehehe.
Then, plurked.
Freaking alot of funny things.
And i freaking love it.
Buying hamster tomorrow,
Buying earphone/earpiece tomorrow,
Hope i can wake up ):

2010-02-27T02:50:00.001+08:00

Can't stand you.
& Baby is freaking funnneh today.
But now he's missing so, i'll take this time.
Okay went out.
Spammed photo alot of zilians.:3
Lazy upload. :x
And i found axton's thumbdrive cap already !
And ,
I suddenly feel that....
Baby is freaking cute and funny :3!
Especially plk story.
LOL.
Freaking funny like hell.

2010-02-25T22:33:00.002+08:00

Life is selfish,
You only get one, Relationship or friendship.
Gotta admit, i'm afraid of relationship.
Because i once lost every single thing,
I struggled through the time,
Finding a single person to accompany me,
because nobody is left for me.
Its so freaking hard,
that life sucks.
Baby, don't end up like me.
You'll be stucked. ):
Baby, since you're choosing me over friends,
please always remember,
i love you more than anything,
more than anyone.
Forever&ever, you're mine. *wink*

2010-02-25T00:03:00.001+08:00

2010-02-25T00:02:00.001+08:00

2010-02-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

Somehow i felt that,
We drifted apart.
But, I don't think you'll be back.
Maybe just let things stay this way.
It might be better for you & me.
You wouldn't complain about me, I wouldn't too.
Maybe things should go on like this,
But somehow, I just felt that,
Those laughters are really precious to me.

黄均豪，
To the world, you're just you.
But to me, you're the world.
Guess you're the only thing left.
Will you leave me?
It decides on fate,
But i'll trust you.
Because, there's nobody else anymore.
Baby, SpadeOfHeart.
Mr. Hongster, Heh.
But i believe you're not.
Even if you're, I do not care.
Because i got the right confidence,
i'll be your number one girl.
& you'll be my number one boy.
We'll be the number one couple.
&, Just yours. NgJunHao.

2010-02-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

I want you to be there,
to catch me away from this fall,
I want you to be there,
when i'm upset.
I want you to be there,
Ever single time i shouted for you.
I want you to be there,
Always and forever, Because,
I fallen in love, with you . (:
Mr. Yellow Colour,
How? NgJunHao's Yellow colour.
I'm TriciaLamJingYi. Is Blue colour.
So our child will be green colour?
Heh.
Baby, You're my everything,
No matter how that fion toh do,
you're still mine.. <3
Fion Tioh Yun Jia,
I know you love me, but can you stop reading my blog?
LMAO. I know you want NgJunHao.
But, he's already mine.
So stop pestering into my blog?
And stop complaining to my baby,
You're irritating !!
Screw this into your mind,
NgJunHao's mine ! Grrrr.
And this is my blog,
You got comments, comment it to Cbox.
Not to my baby's sms.
And i thought you died already?
You say you broke my heart blabla ,
i'm gonna suicide and blablablabla
to my baby? Haven't die meh?
Faster go and die plox !
My baby's time not free of charge okay.
So stop spamming your silly suicidal messages.
Don't cause my baby to be your suicidal reason.
Grrrr.

*Edit*
Baby, you go to Albert's blog,
see his last time post,
your reaction super cute sia !
keep scolding. HAHAHAHA.
can't control my laughter.
Funnydaime. :D

2010-02-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

Baby, I didn't know you'll do this for me.
Maybe we're just Audition couple,
But you really did alot of things for me.
I really thankyou for that.
For the two people that know about what happened,
Baby and the person involved.
Really, i'm disappointed. But, its okay.
Soon, everything restarts.
My freaking right hand bone is burning pain.
I can't hardly type ):
Sigh, so much things happened.
Dedicated to someone:
I didn't wanted to spread,
i wanted people to judge it.
i hope somebody understands.
only you understands your feelings,
i understands mine.
i wanna know what is wrong with me.
Before you did all these to me.
maybe its really my fault,
but i do not believe its all mine.
i'm sorry to spread,
but i just hope you understand.
Saranghaeyo, ):

2010-02-21T22:52:00.002+08:00

Currently just wedding, <3
So happpyyyyy. 140210, & 210210.
When is real life de neh?
Really wonder. tsktsk.

Sorry guys i didn't update,

because i was outside.

and mood was low.

I felt i'm useless, for ppl that know me well,

i think i did share to you.

But i'm sorry, becos I didn't give good attitude.

I understand it sucks,

But there's a reason to everything.

And reasons are stuck with lies and trust.

& just hope, me and ngjunhao's cpl relationships last.

because i don't wish to be hopeless and left with

totally nobody again.

And baby, i'm in love with you.

Jerk baby, is running away >:l

2010-02-18T21:49:00.003+08:00

& Another name of mine again.
Mwhahaha, So sweeet. :D

Done by: NgJunHao's. Hehe.

Justyours, only yours.

Baby, lock me tight to you.

Dont let me run away plox.

Heart locked to you, Are you ? :D

Baby, your present is not ready yet.

Because i'm too lazy today hehehe.

Tired uh, don't scold me T_T
Omg i'm actually done with one thing for him.

Yay ! Happy Eh !
Omg blogger sucks. Can't see.

But its okay. He know I know

Thats all :D

(L) NgJunHao's girl.
TriciaLamJingYi's Boy. :D

nonononono, quit fam plox.

you not feefeez darling ):

You my darling ):

2010-02-17T23:40:00.003+08:00

I love my chinesenewyear,

& my valentines day.

Because valentines day came a boy,

which entered and live inside,

my vulnerable heart.

No matter what, Just Here for you.
NJH .
Baby, Don't Leave me.
Just need you to be here.
Everything will be perfect.
Without you, Its a earth without oxygen.
You're the oxygen in my life.

I love you, Mr. DumbDumb.

2 more days ! For wedding.

Waiting for that day to come,

to make you fully mine.
If time can pause,

I will pause it here,

because we're sweet.

& NJH. wait for tomorrow !
I will show you something nice back!

2010-02-17T22:40:00.005+08:00

Yesterday IvaLeyhBaoBao went to my hse,

To eat steamboat with me and my mother.

Along with Iva's mother.

Okay, Changed ign, ^^!
Can see my name upstairs?

Done by: Dearest NgJunHao.

I love you nar !
Stupid blogger. Keep don't let me upload my picture.

Pissed off with you ! ):

2010-02-15T13:47:00.002+08:00

Childish acts,
I told you what you wanted.
I told you i can break.
You didn't wanted it.
You just wanted this friendship to end.
Was that motherfcking my fault?
So be it, So what?
Do you think i need such a friend like you?
Forever only know break as a solution.
Yea, this is a break solution.
You're happy now right?

& new year was not as exciting as reunion.
Because Yi Jie never bring goofy go ):

2010-02-14T05:20:00.003+08:00

if there were no words
no way to speak
i would still here you
if there were no tears
no it to feel inside
i would still feel for you
and even if the sun refuse to shine
even if all ends ran out Love
i would still have you here
until the end of time
all I need is you .
Thankyou, my valentines day boy.
14th's NgJunHao's Girl.
(L) SpadeOfHeart's.

Dedicated for you;
In this world, I swore,
I do not believe in guys,
I stop liking guys ever since then,
But you made me change round and round.
You made me fell in love back again,
To the feeling which i felt in the past.
Baby, No matter what,
Rain or Shine,
You'll forever be mine.
Even when the river ran out of water,
You're forever & ever, The water,
And the part that i'll need, inside my heart.
& I love you, My SpadeOfHeart. (:
You're my heart, You robbed it away from me.
(L) NgJunHao's, SpadeOfHeart's.

2010-02-10T22:33:00.004+08:00

Happy 1st monthsary breakage,
with you. Short dedication to you too.

You stole my heart,

I can't refuse it going towards your direction.

I gotten your love for exchange,
It never got the way we created,

The beautiful dream crashed,

Eversince yours and my heart crashed.

Your heart do not belong to me,

It belongs to Trishelle. (:

Takecare, Heart. Please get broken soon.

I know what i'm lacked of,

I'm lack of understanding.

But i do not understand, what is 5 hours of waiting.

All alone, following people to entertain myself. (:

Thankyou Iva Leyh Bao Bao.

You're the one that bring me through this one month.

Happy1stmonthanniversary baby,

2010-02-08T17:34:00.004+08:00

Oh no,

my medicine run out.

The medicine to forget everything,

for a month.

Need to get it back again, eu oh.

2010-02-08T15:08:00.002+08:00

Something badhappened,

but it turned out great i guess.

Hopes it continue though. ):

2010-02-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

I totally lost interest in guys,
Is there anyways to make me fall in love again?
I'm not interested in relationship anymore ^^!
And i cannot take it anymore,
I gonna find a day to release my anger.
Powerhouse was the best day of my life.
It make me realised dancing is fun. :D
And, now, I gotta say,
Guys are jerks, And i got no interest anymore.

2010-02-06T06:36:00.002+08:00

100st post <:
Very very tired these few days.
Because thursday went out till 1 plus go home then go school.
And today went to uhhem uhhem.
And were crazy with the songs.
Superhigh, and sucked my energy away,
And fiona get asked number,
The person give blacklabel drink,
Took 2 cup of their's :x
And they asked me drink one shot,
So ya we did, and i'm abit blur now, and these few days,
I don't know whats wrong with me. But i kept feeling low confidence zzz.
Dislike dislike dislike it!
Quarrelled 4times already. Zzz.
Nowadays super sensitive :x

2010-02-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

just hope he lost his somebody,;don't come back for me again,
When couple are sweet,
Baby, i'm afraid to lose you,
When couple are not sweet,
I'm just respecting you, not afraid.
This are how jerk guys are <:

2010-02-03T06:07:00.002+08:00

there are alot of different times,
When its different. It means,
It is time to let it go?
Albert baby,
You say you'll be beside me through everything.
And this is how i need to depend on you. :(
I need you. <:
You're my one and only,
My dumblittleboy.

2010-02-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

posting through phone cause i cant sleep!
To x
Thankyou for trying to warn me,
But i dont have a boyfriend?
Are you. Crazy? O.o
Or you thought nightkids lover
Is me? Sorry boy/girl you're wrong,
Go disturb the woodhead not me thanks,
And 2th <3,
Albert's, <: iloveyoubaby!

2010-02-02T15:43:00.002+08:00

Today i didn't go school.
Cos my muscle cramped.
Till jialat jialat.
And today went to hop blogs,
cos i'm bored at home you know.
And went to HIS blog.
OMG. got people spammed his blog,
using passerby and B-
Omg, hope he knows its not me ._.
i'm not that lame. I will openly scold.
and its so not my ip address.
mine start with 198 ;woot.
Hope he don't get the wrong idea ^^
And the blog so bhb,
say the person that spammed him,
either like him or like woodhead.
Diaos. He confirm suspecting its me now.
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEE,
I'M NOTTTT THIS LAMEEEEEEEEEE.
And only one person will understand me,
;sigh ! And i got a problem,
need alot of brains to work.
A like B . B don't like A like C,
C like D don't like B. D don't like anybody.
How to solve this problem??!
Anybody can answer me ? ;wild.
Tag me in tagboard for it ;sob.

2010-02-01T21:30:00.003+08:00

Hey people:
I got back my phone already.
Isn't it so shocking. :D
So cool rights, Oh boy my phone,
You're my love, One and only.
Did you miss me? I'm sorry i left you ):
Don't hate me okay baby. ;mua.
Alrights today i went to xiao gui ling.
The mountain there. Freaking beautiful there.
Took 110+ photos w/ Somebody's camera ;hoho.
Iva is gonna have a hard time. Hehe!
And I'm a happy girl,
With a happy life.
With a Nice everything.
I'm happy ! :D
I'm in love with my new and fresh life.

2010-01-31T14:52:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to Iva:
I got alot of things i wish to tell you too.
I always wished somebody will listen to me too.
I know this feeling you're feeling now.
Its how i wish to tell you.
Iva, I got alot of things i wish to tell you.
Find one day without Jason,
I will have a heart to heart session with you.
We can cry there, Shag there, Drink there,

But lets promise, No more secrets in ourselves alright.
Anything, We share to ourselves only.
And i will tell you honestly,

What i hate about you,
And what I like about you,
And why i wish to continue to be best friends with you.
Every Single Thing.

Yesterday went to watch ToothFairy.

I swear, its fcking funny. & its make me high.

I wanna watch again ! :D

But then after the movie,

I received a message from Zen,

And tell me everything.
Thankyou Zen, (:

And thankyou helping me reply,

With my name. (:

Sorry for troubling you, alrights.

Then after the movie,

went to sengkang send jason's brother back.

Then, off we went to 7-11.

And buy some Beer/Wine/Whiskey.

Okay, drank in the car.

This stupid drink i bought, not nice.

No taste liddat.

Cannot even make me drunk.

SUCKMAN. ):

Then, went to send myself home.

Cause we can see Jason freaking tired already.

Dedicated to "he"

"he" said he is not spare tyre,

and he fcking ask me for "patch" via sms.

What the fcuk am i then?
A stupid toy when he found batteries,

he put battery and i operate?

OH BOY PLEASE,

YESTERDAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF LOVING YOU.

I TOLD YOU EVERYTHING I WISH TO SAY,

ON THE MOTHERFCKING PHONE.

YOU SHOWN NO SYMPATHY,

AND HURT ME DEEPER ON THE PHONE,

YOU EXPECT TO PITY YOU NOW?

PLEASE, THINK AGAIN.

YOU'RE NOT AFRAID OF ME,

I'M NOT AFRAID OF LOSING YOU EITHER.

I RATHER BE SINGLE FOREVER THAN HAVING,

SUCH A J3RK BOYFRIEND,

THAT ALWAYS WANTED ME TO CHANGE FOR YOU.

HEY PLEASE,

THIS IS ME. I GOT MY OWN ATTITUDE.

SO WHAT I CALLED YOU A DOG?

YOU ALREADY BTH ALREADY WHAT.

WE ALREADY BROKE RIGHT?

YOU ALREADY FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEBODY.

DO YOU THINK I STILL WANT YOU?

OH PLEASE, LISTEN BOY,

I SAID LAST LONG. I DIDN'T SAID COMEBACK ON THE PHONE.

BUT YOU HURT ME DEEP WITH THOSE SENTENCES.

YOU EXPECT ME TO SAY COMEBACK BOY?

EH PLEASE, KNOW ME WELL.

I'M NOT THE FCKING TRICIALAMJINGYI,

NOT THE FCKING MUSHROOM YOU BELIEVED IN.

I ALREADY GAVE UP ON YOU,

AFTER THE MOVIE , YOU SPOILT MY MOOD,

WITH YOUR SILLY TAG.

I DON'T KNOW WHY, I'M NOT HAPPY,

BUT ITS PISS. I WANTED WHACK PEOPLE SO MUCH,

AFTER YOUR STUPID TAG.

PLEASE, I'M NO LONGER TOUCHED BY YOUR WORDS,

I'M NO LONGER TOUCHED BY YOUR ACTIONS.

NOW, LET MAKE IT SUPER CLEAR,

FCUK OFF FROM MY BLOG. OR I'LL MAKE IT PRIVATE.

AND, STOP YOUR NONSENSE TO MAKE MY MOOD DROP.

I'M HAPPY WITH MY IVA AND JASON.

SO PLEASE, FCK OFF.

YOU SAID I TREATED YOU AS SPARETYRE,

AFTER MY FRIEND PS ME THEN I FIND YOU TALK?

PLEASE LA HOR, I PANGSEH THEM IN A CAR,

WAITED FOR 30 MINUTES,

AND I FCKING TALK TO YOU,

AND YOU FCKING HURT ME LIKE THIS.

PLEASE, I'M NOT A TOY.

GET YOUR WOODHEAD AS YOUR TOY.

WOODHEAD ASK HER BANG WOOD LA HOR CB.

2010-01-30T18:42:00.002+08:00

He said he is not spare tyre.
So am i that spare tyre?
Its okay. Its always like this afterall.
Better get used to it already. Sigh.
Life have to goes on, Like how it does before.
It might be painful for me, Great for him.
Since he already found somebody he like.
I really can't get him back anymore.
What i can do is just like what my blog skin says,
You can swear and curse the fate,
When it comes to the end,
You have to let go.
Cos Letting you go, Is a way to say i love you.
And this is the only thing left for me to do.
Although i really do not wish to let go,
But since you announce to whole world,
you love de is woodhead, and the one you broke up with,
is me.
Then i should really let go. (:
Just no longer the same anymore.
Let go , He's not sparetyre.
I'm not his tyre either.
I'm Just me, He's Just him.

2010-01-29T15:41:00.003+08:00

You robbed my heart away,
Without telling me a single thing.
And you ran off with another girl,
Over there crying for somebody.
I don't understand why am i also hanging on.
This time , i really understand,
What this word , Its over, means.
And what this world is , without you.
I gotta face it, I can't run anymore,
Anymore longer without you.
I GOTTA GIVE UP ON YOU.
LAST DAY LOVING YOU,
And tomorrow is a new start of road.
Gonna drink so much martell today,
Wish i'm fcuking drunk like x. red that time.
And i can forget you too.
Today will be fun,Girl.
Trrust me, stop tearing.
Its just words, its just action.
It was my sillyhope that made me tear now. :D
I will stop my hope already.
I'll find somebody for me already. :D

2010-01-28T19:12:00.007+08:00

I gotta say, And announce something.
There is alot of people that don't like me.
Because i never show the True person whom i am,
Outside with other Audition-ers.
The person i can be, the person i will change to outside.
But, there is one special person,
That made me show out everything that i hidden inside,
to make somebody realised it .
After going out with me outside several times.
This person, She is Iva ( Iva Leyh Bao Zhuan)
She made me realised alot of things,
She made me experienced alot of things,
Through REAL fights ( Spar ) and be okay back.
I don't even know why we both cried during sparring.
Maybe thats because we actually didn't wanted to.
But actually, we did spar.
Eversince then, we drifted again.
Then, That day a girl's Taiji at cube.
Made us back so close again. Because .. ( Mushroom must what neh )
You should know yourself, Biatch ! Heh.
You made me experienced a different feeling.
You forced out my real laughter.
That laughter i never took out since primary one.
Making me burst for 10 minutes and over.
Laughing at just one silly item.
Baby Iva, I love you.
You changes my life. Like a puppa to a butterfly.
& no matter whatever that happens again,
Any quarrels, Any fights,
You're still my silly baby. x3.
Still that silly LAUGHTER. ;wild.

2010-01-28T17:52:00.002+08:00

Fuck this mama, Asshole.
Read until MotherFcker Blog.
Make me only shag more. Pissed.
I don't know what to do now.
Thinking of a solution to settle this pain.
Sigh. :x.
Even there is just one person there,
At least its a person, Don't Give Up.
Nobody what happens,
God is always here for you :D

2010-01-27T17:43:00.002+08:00

Phone kena confiscated by the stupid dam english teacher.
Okay now i just lost my contacts list.
Anybody finding me call me @ 96534601
& freaking feeling something is wrong..
I CAANNOT BLOG AT MIDNIGHT WHEN I FEEL LOW LE.
Nomore. ):

Thankyou Iva, for lending me a phone x3.
Lovedaiyou. ;3

2010-01-27T05:50:00.001+08:00

realised that i do not have to think.
Just continue what i need to do,
That is all i'll need -.-
Pissed. Feel like doing things i should not,
But can i? -.-
Pissed again!

2010-01-26T23:46:00.001+08:00

nothing at a lie
All the words you said are lie
Why bother typing it?
Just let it end the page of storybook. (:
Pissed off!

2010-01-26T22:58:00.002+08:00

breathe in a fresh new air.
Let everything restart.
Heard so much and much of your bad things,
And silly ignore it and trust.
Yes? I did trust. I did give up all,
Okay. Heard so much negative ,
Only kept a smile on my face,
Bringing a silly hope,
Ending it up this way,
Let me restart my life again,
Being not this stupid next time,
Allowing somebody to really care,
Allowing somebody to really love,
Hearing your name sick me,
Saying your name myself,
Disgusted me,
Knowing you.
Is my lost. D:
Lets end this once and for all :D
Although i still misses you.
But sorry. I don't love you anymore,
Sorry. I'm no longer going to do so either,
Giving you my last words,
To let it off my heart,
With this fucking pain that
Leave me with nothing now.
Because loving you too much,
Friends are that important right?
It already changes you.
Then lets friend stay and marry with you,
Because, i really dont need this nonsense anymore.
Dog? Sure lets break :D?
Its always my wrong.
Never yours?
And its always only you painful?
So be it, (:

2010-01-25T23:31:00.001+08:00

couple outfit with dearest iva x3
And also planning buy couple boots x3
Bought wallet same too, l:
Lovedieyou la x3
Find it very...... :X
Cause of stupid messages,
Always pull me from heaven to hell,
Iva ah, last long with jianming!
We'll have some exciting time on friday (:
I freaking in love with my life now.
I'm easily convinced to live without you!
love myself and only me (:

2010-01-24T23:43:00.002+08:00

the memories we had together,
Was slowly being destroyed.
That place we love going.
The place i vandalised your name,
The memories we had,
Slowly are disappearing,
The times we're together , was also,
Destroyed. Without a warning,
Guess i cant returned to the past,
You've already forgotten the past,
I guess i should forget you too,
Planning to suicide after the case ends,
But should i suicide for you?
Maybe its the best solution.
To look at you from far distance,
Unable to touch you with my hands,
Only could watch you to be happy,
Watch you find that person,
That brings out what you want,
And makes you happy like how i cant,
Sharp pain cut deep into my heart,
With that sms rung my phone.
With those hurting words,
Cut me deeper into the injured wounds,
Leaving behind tears ,
Bringing no glory .
Thrown in the dark,
With no air,
Drown in the blood of pain,
Watching over you.

2010-01-23T07:00:00.002+08:00

went to tampines mall find things for her,
Then decided to go to pasir ris ,
To go to aimiko chalet.
Then afterthat, went to rounding with iva boyfriend's friend's car.
Was super fun and enjoyable.
But, it sucked all my energy away.
Cant control anymore
Falling a sleep, continue this story part two tomorrow.
And i lost my key :(

2010-01-22T20:48:00.004+08:00

lacking of oxygen. I dont know why too,
Is it cause of cigarette ?
Or is it something else.
Currently at chalet and i'm very very very de bored.
Luckily phone can connect or else i cant post again <:
Feeling low low low low.
Kept feeling low nowadays
At first. Thought will feel better when seeing iva but now it is worst :x
Hyper for a while and gone
:X

2010-01-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

feeling quite low.
What am i supposed to do? :(

2010-01-21T17:02:00.002+08:00

my heart, is just like a balloon,
Flying away from a small kids hand.
And flew right high up.
Without coming back down till its lack of hydrogen.
Whats lack in my heart that makes it fall,
Is my weak little courage.
Thats make you fly from me.
Without even telling me.
And lost in the world of people,
Having difficulty finding it.
Guess its my little courage,
Thats making you happy.
I'm starting to have enough,
Somehow my feelings.
They're playing rollercoster,
I'm losing grip of them,
Running away and away from me.
My mind is starting to go mad.
I wonder who even know about it?
I'm fucking pissed. Fucking pissed.
I'm somehow losing out of control of myself.
I feel like.....
Making it double.
But i cant do so,
Mind is mad,
Cant control. Pissed,
I'm insane

2010-01-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

Currently on the phone with a disturb kia :x
&, currently quite shagggggggggg.
but i'm alrights.
i have already learned to control all emotions .
to stop crying to stop feeling upset.
I'm Strong, bitch.
I don't cry for guys, LAME.

2010-01-19T22:06:00.002+08:00

today was a mad hair day!!!
Was taking so freaking many pictures about stupid hair..
So Many freaking unglam photo!
Was laughing like hell during cca!
Then today, also wedding with tiammmiee! <:
Last long we two. Hoho!
But we also never real life :l
Hopes nobody know my facebook and dont see the photo!
Glad that today turned out to be hilarious!
Or else i surely go mad!
Using phone to post dont scold :(

2010-01-18T22:00:00.003+08:00

my life its perfect now,
I'm very happy with everything,
I'm happy that i lived.
But i feel guilty. Can i suicide?
After the case i'll reconsider.
At least i must let my mum clear that 2k first,
I cant be selfish
Thankyou axton for helping so much, about this skin.
Really thanks :x
I'm super high today,
But i'm feeling low again after the comment.
<: but tiammmiee calling soon.
So everything will be fine <:
I guess? <:
Loveyou , all,
Esp you.. <:

2010-01-18T20:35:00.002+08:00

Dear, Somebody:
I'm Sorry that I treated you so badly,
and i know you do not deserve this.
I know that you're facing a wrong person.
I know that this would had happened.
Its my fault for doing this,
I gotta face the consequences,
I've gotta live without you.
I wish you got a coma, Or
you can forget me easily.
Because i don't wish you to carry my name,
inside your heart for long.
Dear Jesus,
I would like you to forgive all my sins,
And i would like you to hear my request.
I wish that Me and Somebody
Got car accident, on same date,
same time, same hospital,
different venue.
I wish that this causes as to forget our memories.
And let it come to the end.
End this fate of ours,
and hope it never comes back again.
Because, Jesus, I believe you given me the best,
But I'm sorry Jesus,
I can't take your offering no more.

2010-01-18T19:42:00.001+08:00

Thankyou, for making me laugh,
For making me forgot i'm actually thinking so much.
And MR. MARCO POLO.
I HATE YOU FOR YOUR CRITISE.
LOOK IN THE MIRROR,
YOU'RE NOT PERFECT TOO!
And Iva, I love you ! <3

2010-01-17T17:49:00.000+08:00

Everything was nothing but a lie.
I thought he got locked up and all.
Sighs, it was nothing better than a lie.
i do not fck care if he will find me anymore,
nothing but a lie.
LIES ;wild !

2010-01-17T14:42:00.001+08:00

Lost.
Cant get back to the path of road i used to walk,
lost the one i did it for.
did the wrong things for it.
x/3
Currently, losing out of my mind,
losing out of grip.
Just let it be. x/3

2010-01-17T13:51:00.002+08:00

IvaLeyh,
Although i dislike somethings you did,
although i dislike they way you treated me,
the way you commanded me to do things,
although i been through lots of scolding along the way,
there was times that i really wanted to stop being friends w/ you.
But , i was lucky that i could had control my temper.
And , i was the luckiest girl in this world,
to know that you've actually loved me like a friend,
and being treated as a friend from you.
There are times i did, i admit,
i did say bad things about you in my heart,
i did said sorry afterwards,
because i was guilty.
I'm sorry that i did this too.
& thanks for still staying to be my friend. <:
I love you, Ivaleyh. <:

TIAMMMIEE,
Couple !
Although we did not wanted to be real cpl,
although we wanted to just put for show,
although we only wanted to be joking.
and break anytime we wanted as we can.
But, we became to real couple,
which i don't know how the wire went,
till sot plug already, ;hoho.
But, Thankyou couple,
You were the sweetest couple,
and you really did cheered me up yesterday,
although my emotions were freaking low,
you managed to make me even laugh,
from my flood of tears rowing down my cheeks.
Thankyou baby x3
Although i don't really had the intention to be your cpl,
but i now, did. :D
Loveyou, Dumb couple,
that we always threaten to break ;wild!

I Promise Iva Leyh Bao zhuan!

2010-01-16T22:12:00.004+08:00

BLOG HOR MUSHROOM!

2010-01-14T18:15:00.002+08:00

i freaking do not care,
if i'm single or not. (:
Because the old you, that you i knew,
no longer is back.
and i shall let me, fade away from you.
i'm no longer going back,
although my heart wants to.
but no longer, i'll just stop thinking,
stop missing you, stop loving you.
Its 2010 now, let this be a new start,
the new start on giving you up away.
Anyway, you're happy honging right?
I'm fine with it... Yes, i'm.
I'll just let this feeling go away,
let you go away from my mind,
let you disappear from my world.
Somehow, i do not feel the loved.
the love, you said you were giving me.
the friendship you're giving me now.
Its okay, to stop loving you,
its okay, to stop being with you.
its not okay, to stop missing you.
i can't help it. rwarrrrrrrrrrrrr.
But, i know i will.
Goodbye, my love. (:
Welcome, my unlove. ):

2010-01-09T13:31:00.003+08:00

alrights, (:
Gonna go cube today :o!
Wonder who'll be there yea!
Saw my boyfriend cut his hair,
Look dam gay :x
But Still, he's with me alrights,
Wont dump you la.
Stop panicking,

2010-01-08T11:32:00.002+08:00

i think i've changed alot,
Alrights, first i didnt went school
Its for 2 days already?
But instead of relaxing and enjoying the days i dont need to go,
I'm panicking! And, instead of asking for more breaks,
I'm asking to go back,
Wow. Its the first ever time!
Okay, everytime its white words ,
Means i'm using phone update.
So, dont say i did not rest,
I'm going out soon.
To shopping.
But, still sick, tsktsk.
I've got my mc only covered for today,
Because yesterday too tired.
Cant go to doctor. X.x, haha,
Visited the silly doctor,
Gave me tons of medicine.
:( i dont wanna eat,
At first want me inject ,
Lucky ah mother say dont want!
Or else i now coma sleeping liao wor!!
Eeeee! Mother asking me go and prepare go out now!
Sobsob! I want to rest and sleep :(
Later people saw me thought i ponteng :(!
Sob! I hate to be sick!
I know who likes it,
In the past,
Axton yew seng keat!

2010-01-06T16:57:00.002+08:00

well. School started!
But i'm not happy :(
Because these few days were sick!
Well. You'll be saying , why you can blog if you're sick?
Well. I'm using the phone x.x
Hmm, just wanna Say,
Ms arnita teach maths :(
My hair got caught.
I'm doomed! :(
Suddenly felt low confidence,
Sigh!

2009-12-30T13:00:00.002+08:00

Dead blog once once once once again,
don't know what to post
bored of the daily days >:l
i wanna buy new school bag,
new wallet,
new pencil case!!!
;boo
Currently gotten my new shoes >;l
Waiting for jan 08!
And its shopping spree ;shy!
Hope kira and rainbow patch ):
IvaLeyh's And NightKids's,
(L)
How to celebrate my silly new year?
vivo? Marina ? singapore river? Sentosa ? Home ?
Cube ? Evo ? Grandlink ? People house ? !

Holidays were great,
but its sad that i've to end it.
But i kinda miss school,
i wanna a restart >:l
i wanna study study hard.
hope people whack me when i falls asleep!
i want the freaking pencil case ;wild !

2009-12-14T18:08:00.003+08:00

Theres alot of things that i've discovered.
alot of things i've never seen before.
Happiness, its a long word,
but its a short term.
Just like how you and me goes.
i'm just strongly hoping that nothing will happen.
18th is drawing very near to me,
the day i might lost everything.
and also might be the day gained back my love.
All my hopes depends on this day,
just hope that God don't take it away.
SarangHaeyo.

2009-12-10T00:35:00.001+08:00

I do not care how long you might be inside,
how long we can't go out tgt,
how much i can't kiss you,
how much i can't hug you,
how much things we cannot do,
i don't fck care alrights!
i will wait for you , even forever.
i'll also make sure,
that motherfcker caused you this,
get what is hell. H.E.L.L !
Baby baby ,
no matter what happens,
my heart never changes for you.
Even how much the distance you're away,
how much the time dragged,
heart always connected.
I promise you,
once you're out of that place,
the first person you'll see,
its me. not your mum,
not your dad,
but its me

2009-12-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

i'm bored dead. zxc.
& currently i just lost my wallet again,
what i want right now most,
IS A WALLET.
and secondly what i want most,
A CAMERA!!
assholezxc. super broke rightnow.
i want a job job job job job job job. ):

2009-12-05T14:47:00.001+08:00

Precious!
faster come back,
i miss you la. ):
faster come back from hell!